I don’t like to being emotional about a relationship / friendship with someone I like. The Taurus is really showing himself and I’m getting tired of saying the whole thing over and over again. Maybe I said it in my mind and I thought he heard.
Despite everything if not nothing, I have proven and shown him that I truly love him. I hate to complain or act like I need attention. But right now, it dawning on me that I’m in my own world. We are not on the same page yet.
I’m weak .. I just needed to say something here and let it go out of my mind.
Aside the friendship we keep and work we have together, I don’t know if things are working between the both of us.
I hate to deceive myself and believe there is something and to him its like there is nothing.. we are just friends.. Life is not fair and I’m served with what I don’t deserve. Everyday I pray for things to change and I still believe in the love I have for him.
I hate to be in love with someone and I’m not getting the same treatment back.. It sucks and I look like a fool. He does not believe in it anymore.. I lost faith in it a long time ago and since when I met him, Its like LOVE came in another form and I opened my heart for it again. I’m sad but I will get over it.
Its ok if he has stopped believing in the word ‘Love’ and I totally ‘understand’ even if I just assume I know it or understand what he mean. To anyone out there, it looks like I’m just talking and I look stupid but I’m sharing how I feel at the moment and It can happen to anyone in Love. You know it makes us do stupid things and this is part of it.
It is unfair that I’m not getting what I want and I won’t force it..
I feel alone.. I pray I get the love in return back..
He Inspires me.. Yes!! I said so but how will someone in my imagination inspire me?
Figure it out in my previous posts, he is not just in my imagination but he is a part of me. Well, I don’t know how to praise people or lie to them because I want to ‘sing your praise’. I never told him for once that he inspires me I’m sure he is going say ‘WOW!!’ lol!!!!! I always want to learn around him and most times imitate what he does. Don’t mind me, I always feel like that when am around him.
The quote above describes how I feel right now. Every minute, every second I thank God I found him. I don’t know if he found me first but I’m glad I learn when am around him. Its not easy to find such people tho’ and when you have them around you, just be yourself and let your spirit flow with the person. God is author of all creation and he gives us all wisdom, knowledge to do the things we can do today. I thank God for that and for also sending ‘him’ to me cos ‘He Inspires Me :)’
The month of February has been full of good and bad times. I mean I had much fun.. And this year is special cos it’s a Leap year . That’s what makes us all special.
Happy new month ..
My hiding place is where I hide whatever it is that is happening in my life. I hate keeping diaries.. thank God for Blogs .. I can always come here anytime and share my thoughts freely and in as much as I hate Diaries, I wrote some years back in 2007 and I still have them. I stopped writing about everything in 2010/11.
I know deep within I will not be able to keep this blog well but I will make sure I come here and share my life experiences. I have a lot to share and I also have alot of questions to ask.
That is why I call this place my hiding place.. my secret. Some of my friends don’t know I keep this blog. I want other people to share what I have in my life. The Good , Bad , Ugly. And errm!!! If ‘he’ wants to know more too, he can come here .. Lol!!! 🙂
So don’t be surprise if the blog is not well kept and updates are not coming in .. I want to be true to myself here and leave the fake life behind. Its not useful and it never helped in anyway. I’ve always want to be truthful to myself cos I don’t know how to please people not even those who are close to me. I hate eye service so I want to free my wings here and fly.
Till my next post.. xoxo :* ♥
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I have never felt this way before in a long time and I’m still surprised that I’m in love with someone I like. I hate to say that I’m in love but not with someone in the same industry.
There’s no point describing him here but he’s also a popular person and he likes being coded. Before we saw one on one, I used to call him my stalker. We’ve been friends since last year and the love thing that came in between us is what is amazing me. Chai!!! Love wantintin..
Anyways… I’m a girl and it is normal if I express the way I feel by tweeting it or sharing it on my bbm status. It is normal.. Normal in the sense that it will take time for me to be normal to understand him fully. The love thing will be aside too but I like to be realistic with myself. I don’t like to hurt n deceive myself because I ‘Love’ someone.
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I didn’t say he is in a relationship.. Yes he is oo!! And its a big problem for me.. I usually have iSsues with men like that.. Even the single guys are worse.. *sorry face*.
Now the issh there is that if we finally say yes we wanna go on with it. Will I be the main chick or side chick?
That’s what I don’t want to be, a side chick.. Tufiaka!!!
I’m in the mood to share my time with someone who’s gonna worth it. Not someone who will eventually go ahead with someone else n I will be thinking in my little mind that I have someone.
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Did I ever mention have been scared to love again since my last relationship with yomi? No, I didn’t share that. Those years was awesome and the ending part was crazy.. it was not a fairy tale love so it crashed like a pack of card.
I want to take my time and a close friend just reminded me that I should start with being his friend and that the love will grow from there. He also said I should not allow him kiss me that it will just End there.
She’s in love remember…
Till the next post.. Xoxo!!
It’s been a long time I dropped a post here. Life has not been fair and I was very busy with other things too. I missed the whole days for aquarius and I’m sorry I didn’t drop one post 😦 .
How has life been with you? Wanna share any experience? Please feel free to drop them in the comment box.
Till my next post xoxo 🙂
Its been a while since I dropped a post here and I will say that a lot has been happening to me. I don’t know where to start from but I just feel like I want to pour out my heart a little bit here and move on to greater things.
Since the year began, some things that were happening in my life, I was not happy about it. I don’t how to describe it really but it has just been there. January didn’t start off the way it was expected really, but I thank God for life and my family. I’m extremely grateful. Like I said, no new year resolutions so I’m want to be the best I can be in everything I do. Its extra hard work this year and its a money making year for me :).
So far, nothing really has happened .. Its been boring … *yawns*
Anyways, I’m happy it the Aquarius season and I’m going to enjoy myself.
#Aquarius Daily Reminder: Karma is all about positive energy. Put more into the world, the more you receive. Do good with good intentions!
The #Aquarius are the type that can laugh at themselves, even when they’re mad. We’re insane. I found myself in that situation most times and all I do is laugh…
#Aquarius tend to accidentally ignore the world to be in their own little world. I try as much as possible to make myself happy at all times. No one can take my joy, no one can stop my joy. I have to be happy.
Till my next post… Love and Kisses!!! Xoxo
I know it’s been a long time since I dropped my last post. I’m sorry for the break in transmission. I will start dropping posts for this month.
Love you all :* 🙂
Wow!!! Its the end of the year 2011 and All I can say is Thank you Lord. For keeping me and my family, my friends, colleagues, clients, neighbors, the orphans, destitutes all alive till this moment.
Like I said in my previous post, I don’t believe in Resolutions. 2012 will be a good year for all of us. 2012 will be great for us all. 2012 is almost here.. According to my time here, as at now (15:00pm) so it means it is just 9hours to go into 2012. Some countries have entered into the new year already.
I wish all the best!
Till my next post in some hours, Love & Kisses!!!!